I care about you so much, like you don't even understand. All I want to do is talk to you, be with and just love you with every ounce of being I hold within me. I know we said we would wait til the of the year, but this is just so hard. Its so hard not knowing how invested you are. How much "us" means to you. Everything you say makes me feel like you only just give a fuck, and I honestly can never tell what you are feeling. You don't like talking about your feelings I know, but keeping them to yourself makes me go insane.
All I do now is imagine you with your arms around me, holding me, with your face close to mine. I keep reliving that care ride, over and over again. I was in bliss, and it was perfect. We were perfect.