I try to convince myself I don't care. That I don't need to be liked by N, M or S. That it doesn't matter P is so amazingly beautiful and pretty much everything I've wanted to be. It worked for a while, but as soon as I see anything on facebook related to the whole situation, I feel my self esteem and self worth lower and lower.
I want to be liked by everyone, to not have stuff said behind my back and just feel good about myself. Fuck I just want highschool to be over already :(