for 40 minutes, but still.
So today i was supposed to go to the city with J and S, so I could do a little shopping, visit a brunetti's, the waffle place or the crepe place and i guess more importantly meet up with A but they ended up waking up at 12, meaning by the time they actually left for the city it was 1, meaning they would not have gotten home in time for me to go tutor. So no city for Malshi. I was pretty angry at first just because i was so bored, but the boredom led to something productive and useful: cutting up old clothes and making summer outfits! hahah i actually made a very cute pair of highwaisted shorts, and completely mutilated one of J old shirts, to a half decent cropped top (i kinda screwed up the side, but not bad for a first attempt!). I've decided to do something productive each day of the holidays...whether it be cook/bake something different, make something, go out or work out, I don't want these holidays to go to waste!!! which also means I need to start work again soon. I will also watch something french related and knowledgeable everyday. Today was a crash course in the french revolution, which I pretty much have already forgotten (but has sparked interest in Marie Antoinette) and a documentary about Auschwitz.
In other news P is having a birthday party today. He said he would have asked my too come but thought it would have been awkward because I would only know like 3 people there, which is true..but still, I kinda feel shit about it. I seriously need to face the fact that nothing will ever happen between us. There have been so many opportunities yet we are both still floating around each other. Seriously why can't I just feel like this, with any of the guys who have outright told me they are interested in me. I mean A is all for it, yet I still can't make out my feelings :/ ugh stupid adolescent first world problems :/
Friday, 30 November 2012
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
Tuesday, 27 November 2012
life's a happy song.
Blow-by-blow account of what has been a near perfect day.
Speech night today, so met G and N at flinder's where we walked in the absolutely pissing rain to the town hall, my shoes were drenched and weather was disgustingly humid, the morale for the day started pretty freakn low. But yeah, once we got inside, I managed to be able to have an hour long dnm with M about her problems with N, which led to hating of all things melbourne high, which then led to the hating of the fact that good looks pretty much controls everything in society which is bloody shit for all of us who have to try so hard. Finally dismissed at 12.30 we ran and got movie tickets, and stressed (and like I mean stressed) about how much time we would have at dfo, because not only were we let out late, THERE ARE NO BLOODY CITY LOOPS BEFORE 2 AT MC! so we ended up taking a train to flinders, another train down to southern cross and then walking to dfo, but coz we were fast we still had about 2 hours for an intense retail therpay session.
and man was it good.
black top for $2, sandles $2 (slightly too small, but fuq dat they were cheap), grey nailpolish, mauve nailpolish and bronze nailpolish (all $1 each), revlon eyeshadow palette $2, AND a body con dress $10.
The dress is something I never thought i'd buy today, something so tight fitting and body hugging...that extenuates my big hips and ass, but I tried it on just for fun, and N,G,P and K probably wouldn't have let me leave dotti without buying it. They kept saying it made me look tiny, but every time I looked in the mirror I just didn't see it. I guess I bought it, because now I kinda understand how disproportionate my view of my bodyused to be and sometimes still is so maybe I do, look nice in those type of dresses?? awiroutherjk I don't know, but either way I am ecstatic with everything else I got.
Finished shopping early, so caught the tram down to mc to get food (yeah one thing today I am NOT happy about is how unhealthy I was, the garlic and cheese pizza must have been at least 500 calories, and along with all the other crap i ate :/ #eatcleaneatcleaneatclean). On the tram though P confided in my all her problems with N,M and R which she has told no one else, which I felt really well for lack of a better word honoured by? Just because of the fact of how rocky our friendship was at the start of the year and yeah feels good to know its getting back to a better place :) yeah got off the tram, then went into the cinema and watched Breaking Dawn, LOL so the movie was complete rubbish until the last 20 minutes were they did this whole mindfuck vision thing, but still I'm glad I watched it, just one of those movies you have to see AND it was the last one, so why not? Got changed into uniform in the movie toilets, only to realise K forgot her shirt.So we spent 10 minutes walking round mc trying to find a shop still open, that sold white shirts. As we were doing this, I kinda planted the idea (jokingly) that we should all just go home, and we just legit stopped at the top of the escalator and looked at each other considering whether to do it or not. We were so indecisive that we got K her shirt, walked til we were bout 10 meters from the hall, then decided we would just wag. We were scared we might get caught being in school uniform, so we went to a random dodgey alleyway, stripped down and changed back into casual then went to schnitz so K could get chips then to flinders where we took the glenny line to G's house. I was so surprised my parents didn't care, (lol well i guess fair enough, driving and hour to pick my up at like 10.30 vs. 15 minutes to G's house at 9) and had a great train ride thanks to the man with the gorgeous hazel eyes and long lashes that sat across from me (we were still giggling like 5 year olds after G's dad picked us up- omg were so lame). Once we got to G's house, everyone tried on what they bought and the four of us decided to have our own speech night medley were we sang all the songs and the top of our voices and omg it was just so great, we were laughing and having so so so so so much fun.
now I'm home, showered and all snapchatted out. it has actually been a wonderful day. aside from unwanted calories and drenched shoes
Speech night today, so met G and N at flinder's where we walked in the absolutely pissing rain to the town hall, my shoes were drenched and weather was disgustingly humid, the morale for the day started pretty freakn low. But yeah, once we got inside, I managed to be able to have an hour long dnm with M about her problems with N, which led to hating of all things melbourne high, which then led to the hating of the fact that good looks pretty much controls everything in society which is bloody shit for all of us who have to try so hard. Finally dismissed at 12.30 we ran and got movie tickets, and stressed (and like I mean stressed) about how much time we would have at dfo, because not only were we let out late, THERE ARE NO BLOODY CITY LOOPS BEFORE 2 AT MC! so we ended up taking a train to flinders, another train down to southern cross and then walking to dfo, but coz we were fast we still had about 2 hours for an intense retail therpay session.
and man was it good.
black top for $2, sandles $2 (slightly too small, but fuq dat they were cheap), grey nailpolish, mauve nailpolish and bronze nailpolish (all $1 each), revlon eyeshadow palette $2, AND a body con dress $10.
The dress is something I never thought i'd buy today, something so tight fitting and body hugging...that extenuates my big hips and ass, but I tried it on just for fun, and N,G,P and K probably wouldn't have let me leave dotti without buying it. They kept saying it made me look tiny, but every time I looked in the mirror I just didn't see it. I guess I bought it, because now I kinda understand how disproportionate my view of my body
Finished shopping early, so caught the tram down to mc to get food (yeah one thing today I am NOT happy about is how unhealthy I was, the garlic and cheese pizza must have been at least 500 calories, and along with all the other crap i ate :/ #eatcleaneatcleaneatclean). On the tram though P confided in my all her problems with N,M and R which she has told no one else, which I felt really well for lack of a better word honoured by? Just because of the fact of how rocky our friendship was at the start of the year and yeah feels good to know its getting back to a better place :) yeah got off the tram, then went into the cinema and watched Breaking Dawn, LOL so the movie was complete rubbish until the last 20 minutes were they did this whole mindfuck vision thing, but still I'm glad I watched it, just one of those movies you have to see AND it was the last one, so why not? Got changed into uniform in the movie toilets, only to realise K forgot her shirt.So we spent 10 minutes walking round mc trying to find a shop still open, that sold white shirts. As we were doing this, I kinda planted the idea (jokingly) that we should all just go home, and we just legit stopped at the top of the escalator and looked at each other considering whether to do it or not. We were so indecisive that we got K her shirt, walked til we were bout 10 meters from the hall, then decided we would just wag. We were scared we might get caught being in school uniform, so we went to a random dodgey alleyway, stripped down and changed back into casual then went to schnitz so K could get chips then to flinders where we took the glenny line to G's house. I was so surprised my parents didn't care, (lol well i guess fair enough, driving and hour to pick my up at like 10.30 vs. 15 minutes to G's house at 9) and had a great train ride thanks to the man with the gorgeous hazel eyes and long lashes that sat across from me (we were still giggling like 5 year olds after G's dad picked us up- omg were so lame). Once we got to G's house, everyone tried on what they bought and the four of us decided to have our own speech night medley were we sang all the songs and the top of our voices and omg it was just so great, we were laughing and having so so so so so much fun.
now I'm home, showered and all snapchatted out. it has actually been a wonderful day.
Sunday, 25 November 2012
indecision
ugh this morning after a long telephone conversation with M and me going round and round in circles in my own head I had finally decided what to do with my whole A situation. I've practiced what im going to say over and over again, but then after a few flirtatious texts, and dozens of pictures of cute couples of tumblr, I don't know what to do anymore. Of course i would like to give it a go. I mean I like him, he likes me and we just want to see what happens. But what if something does happen? what if I really really start to like him and I can't concentrate on work anymore, that i start lying to my parents to see him, waste time to go out on dates when I should be concentrating on the most important year of my schooling life so far. So cliche, but my heart (lolhormones?) say one thing, but my head says another. I'm just hoping when i see him tomorrow, i'll know what to do :/
I also happened to tell P about it :/ he outright asked me if i "got in" which i know he meant as a joke, but how could i lie? his next reply was a bit weird, but know were talking normally again and actually talking pretty deep.
oeurlfkvdlfkvmf i just dont know. I want to go with A but I don't, I want it to be P instead but he doesn't have A's confidence, I know a boyfriend this year would distract me at the start like crazy and make me feel guilty every time I lied...is it worth risking it all for A??
w;erighwtkjgn hfjfkfdkj
I also happened to tell P about it :/ he outright asked me if i "got in" which i know he meant as a joke, but how could i lie? his next reply was a bit weird, but know were talking normally again and actually talking pretty deep.
oeurlfkvdlfkvmf i just dont know. I want to go with A but I don't, I want it to be P instead but he doesn't have A's confidence, I know a boyfriend this year would distract me at the start like crazy and make me feel guilty every time I lied...is it worth risking it all for A??
w;erighwtkjgn hfjfkfdkj
Friday, 23 November 2012
So whoever said that as you grow older you grow wiser lied
So yesterday was S birthday party, and I only decided that morning to go.
I was totally freaking out about going and not knowing anyone, but I plucked up the courage at went anyway
went at 7.30 hoping to be fashionably late, but only like 6 people were there, which hence led my to a bit of mingling with randoms.
R came, and he also didn't really know anyone so he sat next to me and we talked
then A came.
and well th party was a complete bust, of the 100ish people who were supossed to come, only about 60 did
and it was just slightly awkward
I felt so sorry for S, she looked so upset
but yeah, to kill the time, we had to make our own fun
So I may or may not have tried smoking with A
and I also may or may not have hooked up with A........twice
omg Malshi, what even.
I was totally freaking out about going and not knowing anyone, but I plucked up the courage at went anyway
went at 7.30 hoping to be fashionably late, but only like 6 people were there, which hence led my to a bit of mingling with randoms.
R came, and he also didn't really know anyone so he sat next to me and we talked
then A came.
and well th party was a complete bust, of the 100ish people who were supossed to come, only about 60 did
and it was just slightly awkward
I felt so sorry for S, she looked so upset
but yeah, to kill the time, we had to make our own fun
So I may or may not have tried smoking with A
and I also may or may not have hooked up with A........twice
omg Malshi, what even.
Wednesday, 21 November 2012
latest buys :D
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| what I came home too :D |
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| Dry shampoo |
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| make up brushes |
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| the most eyeliner ever :D |
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| really pigmented blush |
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| the blue is awful, so sheer but the other is ok |
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| sexy new tights ;) |
meal plan for tomorrow
breakfast:
- 2 pieces of toast topped with ricotta, with sauteed mushrooms and onions, and half a tomato
or
- 2 weetbix, with almond milk, yogurt (mixture of forme and greek) and rice bubbles
lunch:
-1 and 1/2 dosa, with whatever curries available
or
- salad made with a boiled egg, two mushrooms, tomato and carrots
dinner:
- whichever i didn't eat for lunch
dessert/snack:
- mugcake
- mango with yogurt
- muesli bar
- almond milk tea
clean eating take #2
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