How can so much time have passed and I STILL care about him so much. How can I still be so vulnerable to his actions and words. It has been years. I don't even live in the state anymore, if it didn't happen when I lived in Melbourne, it's definitely not going to happen when I live in QLD. I just don't understand how I can still have so much feeling towards him. It's no wonder I can't move on, everyone I've met, I've always compared to him and no one has even come close. I just want to move on. I just want to be able to love and care about someone who loves and cares about me just as much.