ugh im just so over it all. I wish I could just not care. About college, about the premeddies, about boys, about grades and about calories. I'm just so tired and all I want to do is stay in bed and avoid it all, but that doesn't solve any of the things I am worried about. I'm just exhausted and want to go back to holidays in melb where it was perfectly acceptable to stay in my pj's the whole day doing nothing but eating and watching movies.
I said this sem would be different. That by being more involved these feelings would occur less and would be replaced with ones that make me feel loved and included. Everything is just so stupid, none of it matters, it's all superficial and fucking pointless.