whilst i'm silently dying from rejection, aunty B is actually dying from cancer. Which just makes me feel more shit about myself for being so fucking ungrateful and stupid. And emphasis on stupid because hey guess who has a chem sac in two days, but is sitting her writing on her blog and playing on her ipod? yeah thats right, me. ugh and tomorrow's GAT and im actually kinda worried because they keep emphasising how important it is, and we have to write 2 essays in 30 minutes and i stuggle to write an essay in a fucking day and omg i don't even know. Everything just feel so.... wrong/not right/uneasy/shit. I just want to lie in bed listening to sad music and eat/sleep.
also as a side note, as well as praying for aunty B, C HAS to get this scholarship. She finds out if she gets into the next round tomorrow, and honestly i just pray so hard that she will.
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