i feel like shit, absolute fucking shit.
not allowed to go to camberwell market tomorrow, and had to listen to ammi and appachchi rant on for 15 minutes about how i dont eat and how ugly i am. Then find out like no one is going to lankan new year which is something I look forward to every year. J isn't going, so N doesnt want to go which means P probably wont go and that means P wont hang out with us, a.k.a me. Having him there tomorrow, and not talking to him would be just as bad as him not coming at all. So i'm going to call J and see if I can convince her to come only for a couple hours and who knows, with the low fucking expectations i have, maybe tomorrow might actually go okay.

lol yeah right