greatest moment of my life so far

beauty is pain

got my eyebrows threaded for the first time, but fuck it hurt.

ugh i have a methods test tomorrow and a spesh one on friday and I have hardly studied, methods ok i'll do decent in (hopefully) but spesh..... MALSHI WHAT THE SHIT ARE YOU DOING! get.your.crap.together. tomorrow l'll only have like an hour for revision... oh please let me do okay god :/

I think this is the 4th time where i've been in bed ready to sleep, when he messages and makes me stay up for another 2 hours -.-

So today was the first official day of year 12 and lucky me with all 5 subjects on the one day with no frees -.- it wasn't too bad because trenchy was away so I did get a period off, but man i can tell these periods are going to kill me when the year goes on. I think i'll be right for englang - Ms Howe seems like a great teacher AND is going away to camp next week which means i get 4 extra frees :D, Ms Chandler is a bitchy tight ass, but seems like a good methods teacher, so i just need to make sure i don't get on her bad side, Mr. Campbell scares me with his intensity but he really seems devoted to his class, and genuinely willing to do whatever it takes to make sure we get through the year and Ms Harvey seems pretty alright too... no complaints yet!
So i survived the first day, only 200 or so more to go.

i swear im bipolar

I just don't want to start the year. First day of year 12 tomorrow, and I feel like crap. Everything feels like crap. Not being smart enough feels like crap, having a fat ass and thighs feels like crap, not knowing if P likes me feels like crap, not knowing which chem tutor will make me less stupid feels like crap and knowing that this year is going to be so unbelievably hard feels like crap.
crap
crap
crap

what is my life

• 5 hours of chem today
• the 5 hours didn't make me feel any less stupid in tutor though ( yay 7/15)
• 61th percentile on my first section 2 exam paper for umat :( (i did get 96 for section 3 though)
• too tired from chem and feeling like a leaking tank (yes i have my period....tmi?) so i didn't go dancing and probably wont this whole month....yeah muscle my ass
• trying to eat less sugar, and is going somewhat okay.... i;ve only sligghhhhhttly cut down, but still its better than nothing (we have chocolate croissants in the pantry though a;euirgh;ejg)
• how can he flirt with me so much in person, but seem so distant online? I keep checking facebook for his messages like every 5 minutes, its pathetic

yeah im in a shit mood.